For the first time, after 3 years, i felt peace in my mind and heart. The fact that i now manage to restore my FAITH. I feel happy for what i have now. My work, My life, My Family, My Friends. I'm blessed. Lots of things happen in my life that made me somehow, bitter, yet still i manage to pick up those pieces and bring my old self back...

The struggles and heartache life gave me stole every inch of happines, hope and faith that i have as a person. And now... im bringing it all back.. not all at once.. bring it back one at a time...

indeed a bitch, that me.

thats the darkest side of my personality. nevertheless, i neve regret it. life mold me to be this way, however, biggest part of these changes is my choice.

it doesnt make any sense does it?  maybe someday.... someday... i might open it up to you guys... someday...

nwei, this page is my personal spot.. i have lots of pages in this blog.. you can check it out if you want to know the other side of me... ^_^

 ciao~

emptiness filled my heart

joy escapes my mind

im still not happy...

where can i find happiness..

or should i say, contentment...

been a awhile, nging bz kasi me s summer hehehe. been at alix bay resort last saturday. company outing. less gastos pero lots of fun. hmmm i dont usually go for company outing, its just that this will be my last na. kasi nagresign n me don. nwei, for the summer it was soooooo fun.. island hoping, swimming s pool, swimming s beach = negra ang beauty ko.. whahahaha

as for the blog world, eloi never fails to amaze me with her tags.. hehehe so i will try it out.. 

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months.
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.

Kaya ang sabi ko naman ay:

• JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses . Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

• FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

• MARCH: Attractive personality, Sexy, Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

• APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

• MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

• JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

• JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

• AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

• SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

• OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

• NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable . Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted . If there is a will, there is a way. Determined . Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely . Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking.
  • DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

  Kaya’t ang tatagtagin ko ay sila:

  ...... sila

hehehe, tpos ntry ko din to from eloi.. ^.^

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heheheh... kkatuwa.. tpos... thats all.. ^.^  

its been almost a month and a half since i update my bloggie. Changes.... that i need to put my attention to. And yet, i never failed to enjoy my summah. Yah, we had this guild summer getaway last April 8, 2008 at Kinagot Resort Cavite. It is a private pool. The place is good but.... but.... we have a little misunderstanding with the management before we leave the place. Nevertheless, i had fun with my friends...

*photo taken by my SO.

less time to update my blog. thank you for those who still keep in touch, who never fails to visit and tag me. khit n inaamag n tong blog ko. Happy Valentines  day [belated that is], Belated Happy 9th yr anniv to us. hahahah tooooo long na... nde p din kmi nagsasawa.. wahehehehe... 

ill make visit visit muna to my friends.. kilala p kya nila ako!? hahaha.

ciao 

I dont know if im really a bitch or what. Im just being myself. In friends, i accept them as they are, all im asking is for you to understand me most when i need you to. But if your tired its ok to let me go. After all, time will help me filter them. Just dont upbraid me of all my mistakes because i can take the best n worst part of you. And will fight with you till end. Thats for sure.

emo becky... ~

im afraid of changes. ironic kasi life itself is full of changes. the reason behind this insanity is simple, that two of the biggest worst scenario that happen in my life a couple of years ago that instantly change my life in a snap. from then on, im afraid that worst thing might happen next. and im a total loser in this case, coz i dnt know how to fight and im afraid to fight that i might end up getting hurt if i took the risk of fighting. and yet im still her, doing this blog, working my ass out. somehow, iv thought maybe im not afraid to fight, im just afraid to try.

 making sense? am i?! ~

bz me. kasi c momot professor n cya.. weee~  kya super less time n cya kin kasi cyempre lesson plan, study, lesson plan. tpos panggabi p ung class nya. till 5-9pm eh labas ko till 6pm lang. pero ok lang, magpapakabz nalang me s work ko. weh~ but ofcourse im so happy for him. ^^

wenk~ 

tagal ko nan nwala.. ^^ HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!!!.. i failed to update my bloggy nagstart ung leave ko from work Dec 17 till Jan 2.. hahaha.. todo vacation ang lola. Im back and im soo inlove.. wenk~